This week I have been feeling pretty crappy. It’s not the flu, or a cold, I’m pretty sure it’s hormone related. Ah the joys of being female. I just stopped breast feeding this last week and I’m pretty sure it’s thrown my body all out of whack trying to regain ‘normalcy’. Now if any of you know me, you know that ‘normal’ for me is very hard to define. I have battled with hypothyroid and PCOS all through the second half of my twenties until now. I had a hard time getting pregnant but was able to do so with good nutrition and acupuncture, and a lot of prayer! (Read more HERE and HERE).
Well all of that leads me to today, going to the doctor to get checked out, and they make me get on the scale first thing. Ugh. I really hate scales. I use them some as a way to mark measurements, but it’s too easy to have too many emotions tied up in that stupid number. That number can totally set your mood for the day, and many times is not the number we are expecting so it sends our day in a negative spiral. Who the heck wants to get weighed in the afternoon when they are feeling bloated and gross? Not me, and that’s what happened today. So of course my first reaction is to be upset. I don’t usually weigh myself often unless its first thing in the morning and I’m either really working hard toward a goal (like post pregnancy), or I just feel like doing it out of the blue. I used to jump on that awful thing EVERY DAY! It would tell me if I was going to have a good day or a bad day. And if it was a bad day, it was usually made worse by feeling me feeling fat all day, not eating, and then binging in the night. If you feel these emotions when you jump on the scale and you feel beat up much of the time, I would hide it for a couple months. Still work toward your goals, but don’t obsess about the number. Use that energy toward healthy choices and exercise and feel how your clothes are fitting to guide you.
Two people (same height) can jump on a scale, both weigh 145lbs, but one be 20% body fat and be a size 6, and one be 30% body fat and be a size 10. Muscle takes up less space than fat and therefore a person with more lean muscle tissue will be smaller even with the same number on the scale.
It took me several years to not obsess about the scale, and I still have relapses from time to time, but for the most part I don’t let it rule my emotional state. Don’t let that little box control your emotions anymore. Make the decision to eat healthy and exercise daily for life. No more ‘on’ or ‘off’ a diet anymore. You can find your balance. Just hide that scale deep into your closet!
Question of the day:
Do you weigh yourself daily, weekly, monthly, or rarely ever?